Saturday, June 30, 2012
day 343
Me too
There are days I can't speak
what I need to speak
need to say I can't breathe
cannot catch the breath to show love
to show you how much I can mean
to your universe
Might as well be invisible
I can change the planet
only if you wanted to see me do so.
I know you'll only know my face
when you are curious
with what you are seeing..
Friday, June 29, 2012
day 342
- bullets -
- Arlington
- DearBorn
-invisibility
- super strength
- super friendly
- I love these kids
- they inspire me
- must
-write
-poem
-to do them justice
Thursday, June 28, 2012
day 341
(and only blood sister)
1
I don't think you can swim
There have been too many times I've caught you crying
Caught you drying tears like your life has depended on it
2 You must have trained yourself
to be so stealthy
and strong
3 I don't know if you know that drowning is beautiful
Immerse yourself in the beach tears you try to avoid
Learn that you are beautifully broken
4
You are so beautiful
It is hard to swim to shores close enough to
gargle out the words you need to hear
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
day 340
Showed me
I really do not like my job
but it's a job
I suppose I am not supposed to like it
What's the supposed to mean anyway
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
day 338
Sunday, June 24, 2012
day 337
Saturday, June 23, 2012
day 336
not enough inspiration I've been capturing
I've been lacking the beauty inside myself
all the beauty I'd ever need
to feel beautiful
is being cradled between my fingertips
right now.
That's what I'm supposed to convince myself
I can be something beautiful
something pretty to look at
makes all the pretty boys want to hold my hand
want to marry me
I want to marry you
and that's all you have to say
and I'll run away
and feel so
pretty
and you'll run away
from me
and you'll feel so
pretty
There are too many poems I'd like to write
too many pretty boys I'd like to hold
with finger tips melting onto my skin
it burns
with some sort of passion
I want to marry you
so I will
but I won't
Lately I've been caught up in all different types of wrongs
all different types of jealously
I'd love to write so many poems
I'd love to write about how madly in love I am
but it upsets me to do so
To do so would cure a blind man's madness
I wonder how a blind man pictures beauty
I may be going blind from madness
Friday, June 22, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
day 334
I have too many reasons to love
to care
and I care too much that I end up
sacrificing
what could be a bright new start
for myself.
What is the lesson of this story
what if some stories are just sky scrapers
with no businesses
there is no business to care about yourself
let alone others
who won't let you care about them
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
day 333
in 96 degree weather seems exciting
it is
until your skin feels like it is melting
and you are so hot
it is so hot
it is too hot out there
dont go outside
dont let it get to your head
do not become hot headed
too hard to become hot headed
heat strokes while i'm stroking your hearts soul
it is too hot
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
day 331
via cell phone
(technology is unreliable)
**
I do not believe that I am hard working
I just have become more used to
working
to feeling very tired
and tired
and money rolls in all the time
but i can't seem to slide along
Sunday, June 17, 2012
day 330
I am attempting to write something beautiful
I would like to dedicate today to Jasper Som
my fiancè...
It is so lovely
how we have learned to live so lively
Loved so lively
Every breath expanding heavy lungs next to balloon sized hearts
You said you had a small heart
You probably do
With your sense of self and self greed
But you love like a hot air balloon
It is so hard to keep each other grounded
but you're doing well
You're doing well
We're doing well
Saturday, June 16, 2012
day 329
this is where i live
you changed the locks on your doors
am i left allone
no
you only want to love me when im drunk
when my heart is completely aware
yes
i am in love
i love you
dont treat me like dirt.
flowers can still grow where grass has turned into dirt
Friday, June 15, 2012
day 328
i had to do it for a reason
i had to love another to show you i can
i had to tell you i could love you without
loving you
and i am loving another
and he is loving me
and where are you to be found
tonight i wanted to say help
but you were no where to be reached
i wanted you to save me before i
loved another
i mingled, hearts tingled,
but i am back in my bed
and this is the first of the long nights
this is onily the first
onlye the fierst
Thursday, June 14, 2012
day 327
Can yoy spear a dollar
Singing
Boston streets
Tell me where your family lives
where the daggers spill blood
only a daughter can smell
it will linger
it will linger
this was never published
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
day 325
Wake up
I need you to leave
I can't even cry anymore
I need you to leave
I woke up to poetry today.
I woke up to poetry.
Monday, June 11, 2012
day 324
It is his love that wounds together
everything that should be
Put together.
Gears of a clock all work in sync
When your hands love my body
It seems like time is all we can fall in love with
Sunday, June 10, 2012
day 323
The love from the night was so
.
.
.lovely.
I am missing almost every adventure
we failed to complete.
1
Pretending to climb trees made of
acid
and neon
and lost hopes
and maybe this is what fate is
I mean we are here,
right?
Portable toilets and empty sand lots
with trees
Imagine what a tree would say
if you asked about it's life
2 Pretending to climb trees made of
hidden lakes and
drunken song verses
and
cheap balloon thrills
We smoke cigarettes like we are addicted
Like the nicotine is the only way
we can feel complete without each other
3
Pretending to not think of you
every time we smoke pot on quiet street corners
The party is over there guys
the party is under trees
pretending to be drunk
They'll make love to trees hugging onto
liquor and whiskey and sober wishes
4 Pretending to climb trees
but finding open bodies of water
almost wanting to open bodies and
glue them together
What shouldn't be should be
and what should be
should stay this way
It feels so good pretending to climb trees
Feels so good
because we are sober.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
day 322
I just wanna go out and
Not worry about having to worry about this later
Just wanna think with my hands
gonna act with my hands tonight
Not gonna worry about having to worry about this later
***ill worry about this later..
Friday, June 8, 2012
day 321
A customer had daisies growing around his house
Daisies are my favorite
Are those....daisies, sir?!?!
Yes! Wild daisies. They grow like weeds. Especially around the high way.
***
I am a dandelion turned Daisy
With pretty little petals
I've been touched before
Stung by sweet honeybee words but
Some days I grow like weeds
Grow like
I don't feel like doing anything today
But I will
And I will grow
And you don't want to do anything today
But you will
You will drive on wandered highways
Stay lost
And lay with sweet honey bees
Who speak words to make flower petals
Grow
And you will grow
Thursday, June 7, 2012
day 320
It's my first day delivering
Pizzas
And subs
And
I'm a bit afraid of giving people what they want
***
Maybe size does matter
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
day 319
We did it
I'm sure it was easy for others
some a little too difficult
but whatever it was for you
it is what shaped you into the person you
will continue to grow into.
There will be times you will give up
will stop believing
will stop loving
Do not stop yourself from feeling like this
There will be a moment you will find yourself
and smile
chuckle a bit
That wasn't worth worrying over
***
Stay beautiful, friends
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
day 318
Not sure if I feel sad yet.
No reason to be sad
***
You eventually leave when you are supposed to.
Monday, June 4, 2012
day 317
I lay here
every
almost every
night
almost every black out
You used to hide during the day
Only spoke before deep slumbers
we used to sleep so soundly underneath swaying branches
Used to sway each other like branches
So used to loving you like this
I am not sure if we are still in love.
I am comfortable
Always am with any lover
You have grown so used to calling yourself different
No
Nothing is different, honey.
You can always collect the same sweet sap from any kind of kissing tree.
Just remember to go in pairs
Sleep soundly underneath pear trees
Maybe wish that this pair isn't strange
Maybe we wish too often not to be strangers.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
day 316
We listen to old school hip hop
and smoke cigarettes
Today I almost burned your eyebrows off
by accident
I giggled
Imagine how funny it would be if you had no eyebrows
Saturday, June 2, 2012
day 315
Halls filled with spices
this is how anger smells
how
being
able to
hate
someone
can smell
Smells like
trapped heat in restaurant kitchens
drives you mad
makes you sick
sick
sick
someone
makes you sick
you make me sick
Friday, June 1, 2012
day 314
at work
Tomorrow is the next day I am working
coincidentally
my elbow hurts more than its ever hurt before
and I am having nightmares of getting paper cuts
every
time I
close my eyes to dream.
Waiting sucks but
I'll be happy