Saturday, October 1, 2011

day 69

mood:

slipping through my fingers

i lay here with hands of nickel
five senses lacking
i know i can't see the beauty of this anymore
heart forgot what it smells like
what speaking good tastes like 
what good company sounds like
my memory is fogged
is rainy
is welcoming October into a shit faced house
ring the bell to enter
i will not let you in.
i lay here with hands of nickel
heart heavy and lungs heaving
this is how i try to feel indifferent.
mood:
it is the jangling of jingle jambles
rambling rambles to make new words
this is how i can feel indifferent.
do you feel it?
lost in a strew of mazes
i don't know what i feel like
i will run through this field of emotions
i am feeling hungry
starving for an appetite to feel
something
anything
mood
is slipping through my fingers.
this is where we lay indifferently
indefinitely in definite
i no longer can define what my heart has to sing
and i cannot find my singing heart
but i do not need your reassurance
surely i will find it
perhaps
it is lost in the beauty of amazement
and this maze is meant to heal
it will do just that
it will sing hello on the dew drops of October leaves
loudly sing lullabies that leave hope with me.
in a couple of days
i will lay here with hands of nickel
but it will all make sense
this restlessness will leave
it is Autumn, love
it is Autumn.

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