day 305

1 I've spent almost a year convincing myself that I am beautiful
It hits hard when you don't feel an ounce of pretty
2 I get angry too quick
3 Yesterday I had a panic attack
When I tell someone to STOP
more than once
I grow more anxious
4 Sometimes you just can't stop crying
5 Sometimes I want to cry for days and days and days
6 Yes. I WAS RAPED. THAT DOESN'T CONTRIBUTE TO MY LACK OF BEAUTY. That doesn't fucking
7
Fuck
you
8 My goodness
9 I will heal somehow
I will heal
This will heal
I will heal someday
Hopefully completely
but I am losing hope
10 I am losing hope
I am losing beauty