Spiders

1

You caught me running straight into your arms

Literally

The curve of your smile matched the curve of your elbows

You cradled me welcome

I was always a bit too clumsy

But you were always there to catch me

2

I was stuck

The way a fly

Gets stuck to a spider web

But I was sure this story had a different ending

I enjoyed being pulled in every second of the day

This web reflected a love so different

I remember inching closer and closer

Until

We were finally that odd couple

That fit together in the weirdest of habitats

The crooks between your fingers

Hugged mine snugly

3

Was my new bed time

Unlimited data plans are the shit

I loved being in touch with you

And your touch

The way you turn your head a bit before kissing me

I loved it

And I loved you

And I loved being in love with you

Everything was perfect

It was spring and the moment I opened my eyes that morning

All I could see was tinted in shades of Technicolor rose

My eyes

Had been switched with my heart

And my brain was in my stomach ready to fall out of my butt

But trust me, love makes you say crazy things

But you don’t care

And at the end of the night

I caught myself staring endlessly at two spiders on my ceiling

One quick to venture off

The other stood stature

Ha, opposites

They’re always cute

4

I’ve traded my fears and secrets for your hopes and dreams twice

You’ve seen the dimple on my back more than a million times

And we played Pokemon til the end of time

If it weren’t for Bellsprouts and Charmanders

We probably wouldn’t have even met each other

Our paths grew for years, in directions too different to handle

And unfortunately,

This never ending route we took,

Reached a fork in the road

And of course

As opposites, I chose left because I’m a lefty and

you chose right because we can never decide on anything together

5

Amongst the jumbled letters that rearranged themselves into hate

I said

“I hate you”

But I didn’t know if I meant that.

Eventually,

I didn’t even know why we had fought in the first place

I just remember trying so hard to be the person you wanted

The girl so different of who I really am

How do you transform yourself into someone lovable, but most importantly

Why would you want to change your identity for love?

I found myself not being able to handle our differences any longer

6

You asked me what I wanted.

So I told you

“I want to not feel 19 degrees inside when its 70

I want everything to shine in shades of pink

I want so badly, to love you with every bone in my body

The only way I know how

I want my words to make sense again”

I have never understood how we can be such powerful creatures, yet feel so weak simultaneously

I hate not wanting to apologize

But I’m standing strong on my point of view

I know I wasn’t wrong

But we were always opposites

And your wrong is right and my right is wrong

But in the end

How can we decide who’s right or wrong

When everything we do is wrong to each other?

7

The spiders are gone now

But I trace their spider webs with my finger tips

And suddenly, I am drowning in a tidal wave

Of our broken relationship

Some nights

My bed becomes a sea sponge

Until I realize

That I’m 72.8% water

But you were always 72.8% oil

And I was always there to catch you