day 24

Reflection:

I look at myself everyday in the mirror

but I don't see any physical changes.

perhaps my hair has finally grown on me

and my eye infection grew over night

but I am still 

me

no matter what.

I'm still the geek that

fascinates over simple music theories

and masterpiece tuba tunes

and I'm still the geek that

my chess team likes to show off

because I'm the only girl

and I'm still the geek that

will complain over too much schoolwork

but secretly worship all the challenges

like a guilty pleasure.

I'm still myself

I've changed a few tidbits to my look

but I'm still the growing tadpole

swimming in every direction

just to find where I belong

I'm growing more and more everyday

I get a little guilty

and geeky over how excited

my spirituality is showing

but I'm slowly

growing

into someone

that

I love.

And even though

I'm still the same little person

that swears like a sailor

and the geek

that sorta feels out of place sometimes

I'm finally sailing smoothly

into a home on the ocean

these waves are crashing at me

cold and dark

but I've grown to love these mishaps.

I love myself

I love where I've been

I am a geek

and today I have a slight eye infection

and a show in front of 1200 people

my hair is getting a little annoying

and my bones are like tadpoles about to

swim out of my skin

but I'm still fascinated

by the world around me.

I'm still the geek

that loves to face these waves

one day at a time.